So here I am, it’s 12:51 am and I’m on my smart phone letting my mind wander - open my App Store - trying to distract myself from my own head. The fan is too loud right now - is that the dog breathing heavily? Why on earth did i say that today - I hope he doesn’t feel horrible about being with me. I try to think of how I should be. Should I be more greatful? Should I put my worries aside and let my mind rest? Oh I have tried. I try my hardest to solve the puzzle and get what comes next but I just cant. Why am I trying to find patterns? Always putting the circles with circles and the squares with squares. I have found that I am always asking questions to people who don’t need to give me answers. I always feel like I need confirmation and support. Tonight I feel muddled. I’ll try to find out why After a day of cleaning up the rental, riding my horse and visiting my Aunty and dad I just feel exhausted. I walked into the old family home in which my Aunty is residing- immediatel...
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